An attractive doctor tucking you in, while getting your i.v., can be a upside.

I wanted to update when things got a little bit more exciting or something actually happened. My days have been filled romantic conversations between the finacial director of the hospital, the woman who makes the appointments, nurses and any other staff that wants to talk. I talk to them at least 4 to 5 times daily. I can't complain in the least though, I'm very lucky that I'm in a hospital that cares so much about their patients. Any questions I've had have been answered in full and than some. I think that this is one of the most important things. I can't stress that enough. My first doctor was wonderful but as soon as I came here I couldn't think of how much time was wasted and how he manhandled my boobs. So yes, time is so incrediably precious but also finding people who you feel really care about you is as well. Make sure you take the time to do that because in the long run, you want to feel comfortable talking to your doctors, nurses and any other staff because the truth is, you will be seeing and talking to them alot. I feel like I've made a slew of extended family and hopefully potiental lovers which leads me to my next point. Expect to see a two handfuls of gorgeous doctor men walking around and attending to your every need. I might have cancer but I also have an incrediably attractive staff to keep me the giddy 23 year old girl that I am.

I finally had my p.e.t scan Tuesday. A positron emission tomograhy scan is where they inject a radioactive gloucuse into your body that latches onto your cells and later will light up the bad cells in your body which tells you where the cancer has spread, if it has spread at all ( a very loose description by my radiologist). I basically took a nap while the radioactive sugar set in my body for an hour and than had to force my little eyes to sleep for another two while the machine did it's magic. The only thing I could really relate it to is like space mountain but without the motion and the lights. Well actually, only when you get into it, you hear this little twinkle sound and thats as space mountain as it gets but it was the most productive nap I've ever taken. I'd be a liar if I said I wasn't a bit nervous in the outcome. I have faith that god will do what he has plans and will not give me a path that I can't overcome but of course, you can't help but worry. Everything really depends on those scans and if the cancer has spread. I think the fear starts to creep in when you feel your body giving out. I've found a lump on my viens and my right arm tingles something fierce but I suppose you just have to fight through it because you can't focus in on it. Of course, let your doctors know though of any pain you have even the slightest! Anything that happens in your body is serious but If you stop, think about the pain 24/7 than you let it win. You have to fight and mentally be stronger than your body. I can only pray that everything turns out in my favor.

Anyway, I've been roaming Seattle alot lately. I still have to find my way around but the public library in the center of the city is by far my favorite spot. 10 stories of nothing but books and music. They have a huge collection of books on film and beautiful literature. If there ever was a city to be, I suppose Seattle would be it.  Hopefully I get better fast so I can actually go out and meet people! I mean I need to get back to my late night of eating hot dogs!!!! (Emily hurry!)